today juz had my art exams and math paper 1. man ! the freakin math paper 1 had so many pages and had so many hard qns tt requires us to think alot. we were like slowly thinkin and checking for mistakes in our working when mr lam said : " you have 10 minutes left. " and i heard a few ppl saying : " shit ! " and i was like : " O.O !! wat the hell !! " i was still half way through the paper. i begin to rush and i skipped many qns. i cant help it man ! is like i see the qns and it requires alot of calculations, i will juz move on to the nxt one. unfortuanately, all needs alot of calculations so i juz did those i'm really sure. haha ! fer art, oh man ! it's a disaster again ! i didnt really prepare much. bt i think it is much better then the one i did in mid-yr.

okay, i was feeling kinda down lately after quarrelling with my couz. though, it isn't tt obvious, i was really hurt tt day. i cnt believe tt she wld say such things to me when she didnt get wat she wanted. i passed by my couz's blog today, and i kinda regretted wat i said the previous blog. bt this is my character, wat do u wan me to do ?! i hv to trash this anger away before it pollutes me and u dun wan tt to happen. of cuz u gotta let it out some how. so for me, i trashed it in here. it's not my fault for becuming so inhuman to my couz. i dun like ppl to scold me with vulgarities,
especially my fav. couz. i kinda realised tt she is becuming more gangsta like. dun blame me, suan. bt tts my point of view. actually, i didnt wanna break ties with u. bt whenever i remember the sentence u said abt gettin ur gang and beatin me up, tt kind of tone is kinda tellin me tt u wanna break the ties between us. u hv never said such things to me before, do u know how much it hurts me ?! if u really think tt i only cared abt myself, i dun hv to treat u so nice tt i oways neglect ning. i bet ning is thinkin y we hv oways neglected her. cuz ! we hv been best couz for like ... FOREVER !! i oso cnt believe tt chen lao shi wld bed mouth me. tts y i said i cnt trust anyone else anymore. u know watz the feeling of being back-stabbed for two times ? let me ask u, wld u trust anyone else after being back-stabbed for two time ?! i wld not want to be betrayed the third time again ! u cnt understand how i'm feelin right now ! do u think i wan such things to happen ?!

after reading ur letter, suan. i cn forgive u bt it may not be my 100% trust anymore. i've been hurt real bad, it takes time to be fully recovered. i tot u know me well. u were the close-est. i forgive u unless u stop using those vulgarities. i dun like ppl to used such foul words. especially the word gangs. i will write a letter to u instead.

signing off ~