everything is in a mess right now. i cant even tell what i'm really feeling. is it sad, angry or confused? i cant tell anymore. things aint going too well for me. i had two bad news in one day, really bad ones. i'm trying to keep everything smooth for myself. yea, i know i've not done enough before. i've realised my mistakes. as what xn said " time waits for no one. " looking at that sentence really make me feel extremely guilty for not treasuring my loved ones when they're with me. well, what's happened, it cant be undone right? how i wish there's a time machine. well, everyone says that when they're in my situation. but i seriously need one! i'm desperate to get everything back to normal! well, i'm just gonna try being strong. hope everything will turn out alright!

what do i have to do to make all my sorrows go away?! i've seriously regretted! i'm sorraye for everything!