why do we have emotions? why do i have to have emotions? my emotions just keep bringing me down. how i wish to be cold, really cold. i wont feel guilty of rejecting someone, i wont have to feel sad or cry infront of people, making myself look really pathetic! or have to take the effort of forgetting someone and accepting a new relationship. i dont seemed to have put down the previous one, and i cant seem to accept a new one. i'm thinking, ALOT! questions just keeps popping into my mind. what if this is bad? what if i miss such a great chance? what if i make a wrong move, and my life turns into a disaster?! what if .. what if .. there's so many what if(s)! my feelings is in a chaoic state right now! o levels, relationship, friendship, kinship! my mind and emotions are turning upside down, having to think about so many things! reason being, all four aint really going that well for me! i've no idea of how to reject someone without hurting them, but fact is they will, i really dont know how! blame me for all i care, i just dont know how to say no. i dont want to hurt peeps, but i know doing this will hurt them even more. i'm sorraye. look, people, i dont even think you guys know what the hell i'm saying right now! but this is what i'm really thinking right now. in my mind, there's a yes and a no, within the yes and the no, there's another yes and a no, it just keeps branching out like there's no ending! i'm really trying to be a optimistic person, but all this are not allowing me!



i'll try harder, now, i'll just concentrate on my o levels. nothing else ...



sayonara`

Jol!