i wanna disappear frm this world right now !! (if i ever cld) i wanna hurt myself, make myself die slowly, slowly disappear frm ur sight, i'm really in a mess right now ! though i know it's my fault, i sleep late, i'm late for every meeting, i late for sch, i'm late for every thing alright ?!?! bt i'm tryin to change ! a few weeks b4 exams, i tried sleepin early, and well, i did. i slept alittle earlier. i tried preparing earlier bt i'm still late when i'm meetin my frenz. wat cn u say, it's ordy my habit and i tried changin ! now, i'm still tryin. while talking to my tuition tcher, u try to act big, though u r bt u ain't oways like tt. do u know wat ?! after scolding me, i really wanna go against u even more. u r tryin to increase the hatred in me. i really feel like dying, feel like disappearing frm this world. bt i juz cnt, cuz of u. thinkin of dying, i think of wat u wld end up like. my heart ached real bad. tears dripped continuously. i feel like running away, away frm this lyfe ! i dun wanna live in such a life. do u think i wan this to happen ?! do u think i dun wan to change ?! now, after talking my freakin tuition tcher, u wanna take all my freedom away. now, i really cnt breathe. hatred is trying to kill me ! if u ever take all the things i hv now, u will see a different person instead of the real me. u will regret. i'll be juz living in this person's shadows, not allowed to come out ever again. bt if u really wan me to change, if it really makes u happy, if it really save ur face, i'll change. i'll be ur doll, dress me wateva u like, change my attitude if u wan to. the only reason is bcuz, iloveyou, mummy ! though u increased the hatred in me, i'll oways loveyou.