heyy people! it's been a rough day for me and my family. well, today i aint staying with them. i hope they would take a good rest after four tough days. espeacially my grandma and daddy. well, i'm gonna study hard now. i'm trying to get my head into studying. after having a talk with my brother, he had really convinced me. but can the words in my head be there forever? or will it disappear and disappoint everyone again? i've no idea. let time tell us but, it all also depends on me. alright, enough with that! hmm, came back, rest awhile then went to take a shower. ate then kinda doze off alittle. after that, i was in heaven. DURIAN!! it's been such a long time since i last ate durian, which reminded me of something. by the way, what's the salt water for? after so many years, i still dont really know what's it for.

what's the whole point of regretting now? it'll never bring back what i've lost. but, can i control what's taking over me right now? it's just coming to me even when i dont want it to. people! i think you guys should know. please treasure what you have right now. dont regret after you've lost it. even after my dad told me thousand of times. nothing went into my head, until now. i've seriously regretted. why didnt i just listen and do what i was told?! i'm seriously sorraye! yes, i admit that i was just thinking of myself and not others. people was right! so, now, i can only rely on memorise to remember those beautiful people who used to care and bring colors to my life.

replaying the songs we used to listen together, made me remind how happy we were back then. is it better to have amnesia now?