My heart is tearing apart!
Sometimes, how I wish I was dead right now.
Just leave my troubles behind and be free.
Ahh~ that's when real "life" really starts.

And yes, I've realised that I'm more negative these days. No matter how much positiveness I shove in me, it's just useless. My soul is dying. One day, I might just do something really, REALLY stupid. And that's the day I've really lost myself. No more tears will be shed, no more screams will heard because, it'll just be an empty shell walking. I'm sorraye, negative thoughts just keep appearing in my head and emotions are tearing me apart. I cant help it! I dont want to love, cry, throw any temper anymore. Cause, whenever I want to, I'll be putting myself in others shoe and so, it's being bottled up again. Please, take away my emotions, PLEASE! I'm losing myself very soon.... How I wish I was my childish self, being able to do things without caring for others. That's why they say being a child is your most happiest time in your life, after that, it's hell. I wonder if that's peter pan's reason. Whatever.

People, if you know me well enough, do not comment anything on this, Thankyou. It'll be greatly appreciated.