gosh! it's so worth passing for... i will study for the sake of you, my darling! NO MORE self-discouragements, NO MORE laziness and more importantly, NO MORE GOOFYING around! it's time to get serious. you're my whole life's dream, what an opportunity to have the chance to achieve such great treasure... from what i was told that this is the one and only last chance i have! come to think of it, having such goal ahead of me, will just be killing two birds with one stone... able to be with you and enjoy the rest of my life...

well, not exactly enjoy my life but at least aint gonna suffer from what i will be going through this year. like what my brother said, "would you rather suffer for just 5 more months or just slack off and continue suffering for the rest of your life? 5 months? OR 50 YEARS?! your choice ..." aint that sound so encouraging? dont you feel like fighting right now? haha, well i do.

i know you guys are really worried for me, i truelly appreciate that. i can see that you guys are really doing your very best to help me... providing me with tuitions, paying my tuition fees, updating me with the latest news happening around the globe and even asking friends to help me... i really, EXTREMELY love you guys. but i just somehow, aint showing any gratitude... i'll change, i promise! dont see me fooling around but, i seriously dont wanna let you guys down. i'll kill myself, cause what's the whole point when all your shame has been ripped off you? i'll seriously have no face to show... esp. to you guys... well, you'll see, i'll change... FYI, i know what you thinking---- "you've said that the last time. =.="

oh well, baby, i'll wait till the time comes... i'll use all my wits and strength to achieve your presence... GAMBATEH PEOPLE!

sayonara`
JoL!