chinese new year is over, and yesterday, i had dinner with my daddy and grandmother at my auntie's place. i went straight down after my tuition. i was still in uniform man, so i totally stink but oh well, i managed to bring an extra T to change. which added weight to my "already heavy" bag. i went over pretty early though, my daddy was still cooking when i arrived. so i talked to my cousin and what shocked me was that my cousin had spies in school! she knew what my progress was. i wonder who that spy is... but no worries, i've got suspects now, i shall open my eyes wider and observe. hmmmm .........

the day before yesterday, i had dinner with little trios and family. my granny had to eat vegetarian food on the 15th so we had our renuion dinner earlier instead. we ate at shanghai, it's all the dim sum, xiao long bao etc. it's really nice, that restaurant was on television before. anyway, the little trios, obviously had fun and laughter, even while we're eating. haha, but maybe not as much as the last time, cause everyone was tired after working and schooling for half a day. esp. suan, she went straight after coming back from her NPCC training, she didnt get to shower or anything cause she went home late and so, there was obviously no time for that. anyway, she was kinda moodless too.

i really enjoyed these two days, it was really a bonding dinner, everyone talked, laughed and ate together at the same table. it was a moment for families.


well, at least, it was for mine.

i kept this hope of seeing you in the streets,

wanting to let you see how happy i am,

without you.

"hello!" is what i want to say,

then pride and satisfaction,

would just hide everything,

because ....

the fact is .....

i'm falling apart.

(= i shall write more the next time.

sayonara`

Jol!

man, i'm having a massive headache right now. i have no idea why. i'm really tired lately, i have no idea why too. i've been dozing off during lessons, my eyes couldnt stay open and i tend to be in a daze too. most probably, i'm lacking of sleep or maybe something else. sigh.

today, my brother and i went to have an early reunion dinner with my daddy, grandma, uncle & family. the food was good and i guess we all had a great time there. my uncle's daughter was superbly cuteee! but she was kinda shy though. well, she made my daddy and grandma happy, that's for sure. chinese new year is just tomorrow, cant wait to go visiting. by the way, there's a concert happening in my school but i'm not going, well reason being, it's just half a day and it so happens that, there's a place i have to go and cant wait to go. something so much important than my school's concert which i'm not gonna mention it here. (: anyway, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR in advance though. :D

have i been lying to myself all this while?
no matter what, i'll turn that lie into a fact.
free myself from such torments.
but it shouldnt have started in the first place.
such mistakes had jeopardize you and me.
i shall say no more...

FRUSTRATED!

Jol!