Why has our kingdom so united, fall out just within a night? Everything just happened so fast and it is so unbelievable! Chaos is spreading like wild fire and countless of people are getting hurt as the time goes by. What a heart breaking sight...

I may still have doubts about the whole thing. However, from what I've heard and seen, really changed my impression I had on you. What sinister behaviour. Anyway, unless I'm being deceived but i doubt so. But as I've mentioned before. "What ever you do to someone else, might eventually reflect back on you."

It's falling...

A blissful sight yet a hidden pain to another.

Am I being too sensitive or is it true that everything is changing? Well, to be honest, it's only a one day observation, so probably I still cant make any assumptions yet.

Anyway, I admit that I was owned by my "oh-so-good" friends at milkcafe, cause apparently, I couldnt think of anything to shoot back. Hah! I'll find my ways. :D Anyway, it was great eating with them cause they were the ones who made me smile to my fullest. *Okay, to be precise, I was laughing to my fullest! Tears of joy! Hah!* Before that, I wasn't in any right state to do anything other than sitting infront of my desk, doing work. People around me just never fails to influence me. Call me sensitive but, I just feel a sense of rejection in the atmosphere. Especially when you came in to my class for just that few moments, my focus was ruined! Our 2 coincidentals totally spoils my mood. No! I just cant stop the urge from thinking, feeling, seeing you! Yes, yes! Once again, I'm distracted! Always! It is at this crucial moment, I get REALLY distracted! For the past few years, I've been sharing but, somehow, they just get really tired of hearing it EVERY SINGLE year! Though unsaid, the tone of their voice just tells me, "Oh! Not again?!" Well, there goes my listening ear. But do you think I want such distraction?! If I were given a choice, I won't want such pain, who would?! Anyway, I think I've side track too much. Back to the topic. Yeah, so eating with them simply makes me happier. I don't know, am I getting too sensitive or somehow just paranoid?

I've been thinking. Have you ever thought about the things you do to people, might eventually reflect back on you? Friends. What does it mean these days?
When one talks about another behind their back to you, what makes you think they won't do the same thing to you? It's the happenings in these few years, made me wonder...

Am I thinking too much?
The rain kept falling...

Oh well, signing off...

Sayonara`
Jol!

Do you know what?
I am such a lousy friend!
Probably, I am not even close to the word "friend" at all.
Well, it was only yesterday when I realise that. Hah! Too late?

Anyway, my saturday morning ain't ruined today, cause I freakingly DIDN'T attend today's mock exam. Well, I skipped it actually, mainly because I don't think there's anyway use sitting for that mock exam when I didn't study much for it. If I did go for it today, I'll just be wasting my time and my teacher's time. So, yeah, I don't think there's anyway freaking use for that. Do you think I'm happy when I skip my mock exam? NO! I felt utterly guilty today, alright? But, like I said, WHAT FOR?! *Jolene, you're such a slacker!* Whatever man!

It was pouring in my dreams today. Why?! Is that the doings of my inner me?
I don't know.

Sayonara`
Jol!

Hah! These past few days, I'm super uber unlucky!
First, was me being late for school for 2 days straight & the other was choosing the wrong day for a jog. But, honestly, it's not me being unlucky, it's the choice that I've made. But, me being late for school was just simply unlucky!

Okay, this is what had happened. I must say that the first time for being late was mainly my fault. That I wont deny. I was lying on my bed and I wasnt willing to move my ass. Damn shagged! So you should get the picture now. BUT! the next day, I woke up extremely early(early by 10mins, does that count? :D), prepared everything much earlier than usual(well, to me, it is.), however, I stood at the busstop like some idiot, waiting for almost 10mins(well, you should know that when I say that, the next bus should come much earlier that 10mins right?) and for that 10mins, I've took out my cell phone for countless of times, looking at the time passing by.
Okay, so the bus finally arrived, but, when I was going up this overhead-bridge, the 859 bus just left. Urgh! How unlucky is that, huhhhhh?! Anyway, obviously I stood there, waiting for the next 859, hoping that it comes earlier. And you know how untrustable that new device that was built in busstops was? "859 Arr", minutes later, "859 07(mins)" but no bus! Man, knowing that I'm on the verge of getting late once again, I was so happy when it says 859 is arriving, (I knew it was untrustable long ago, but it does give a rough estimation). BUT! It cheated my feelings! I was standing there, holding on to my wallet, getting ready to lift up my hand(I dont want history to repeat itself. Read my previous posts if you have no idea of what I'm saying.), when it flashed 7 minutes to 859's arrival. [-.-] + [>.<] yeah, that's the combination of my expression at that very moment. I'm definately late already. But, I still had hopes in myself. Upon arriving at my destination, I kept my ipod, and ran towards the gate as fast as I could. OBVIOUSLY, the bell rang lah. Okay, what I'm about to say now is gonna prove how unlucky I really am. The bell rang when I was about to turn into the school. Just a few centimetres to my turning, and it rang, IT RANGGG! I'm not trying to exaggerate my way through, alright? It's the fact, and it's probably much more amazing if I'm saying this in person. So, okay, the late comers had to stand outside the gate till the national anthem was over, right? And you know what, I was the first in that row. Okay, usually being first is superbly glamourous, BUT, this is not at all glamourous at all lah!

Urgh, I guess this post is gonna be a very long one. Or probably not. I don't know.

Okay, I've made a wrong choice actually. When I came home, I wanted to go for a run cause I couldnt stand my unhealthiness. But, the sky was full of grey clouds, still, I insisted on going for a short run. My auntie and I went down and off the to canal, and on the way there, I already felt the rain drops. Still, we insisted on going. So, I jogged while my auntie walked. Jogged for a few minutes, it started to dizzle. But, I continued, so it just got heavier and heavier and HEAVIER! It was pouring within the next few minutes. I seeked shelter when, from a distant, I saw my auntie with her red umbrella walking. So I ran in the rain. It was really nice though. If it wasnt because of the rain being so acidic, I wouldnt mind getting drenched from head to toe. I love the rain, but I love my hair more. :D Yeah. But, the next day, I came home at approximately 6pm and the weather was so nice! But, it was too late for a run. So, what a waste man! I know, you're gonna say like "you cant predict what's gonna happen tomorrow what" I know, but... Ahhh, whatever you wanna think lah! :D

Yeah, so that's all for now.

Sayonara`
Jol!

I must say that I am extremely happy today.
To those who went for the gathering, it wasnt about the surprising attempts I had made today. So dont think I am being too complacent to blog about what happen alright? :D
Anyway, to be honest, I have no idea why I was superbly emotional this afternoon. Well, going back to that petrol station, memories flowed in instantly. I'm not sure of the others but I certainly did. Being the kid I once was again, everything seemed so complete! Everytime, I would always ask myself, "if we had just stayed there and not move at all, would everything turn out differently?" Because, everything fell within just one year, comparing with the many years we had together. Ahahaha! What the heck am I talking about? I shall say no futher.

Yeah, but after the dinner I had and the games that I played, you guys totally cheered me up. The games, the company, the laughters, the complaints, and the encouragements really are the medicines to sadness. Haha, well people, dont think games are just a piece of junk that will just pull your grades down, it's really a good way to bring someone's spirits up.(But! Of cause, kids, dont lie about feeling down everytime just to play games. I dont want parents to come looking for me.) Haha, and some are also a good way of sweating out. Haha, well, I managed to and I bet that tomorrow, my arm is gonna hurt REAL bad! As in seriously!

Today, the sunlight managed to penetrate through the thick dark clouds...

Oh well, I have to go now. It's getting late.

Sayonara`
Jol!

Hey people! Yeah, i know that i've not blogged for days. *I can see that. :D Anyway, I totally did not do any mugging today. :( Disappointed?

Anyway, my Saturday morning was once again ruined! Well, I had to take a mock exam in school which I had hardly study for. Yeah, so no doubt I will do badly for it. After the mock exam, I had breakfast with ngoh at KFC. Actually, we wanted to head to milkcafe, however, it wasnt opened yet. *Cries! I miss the Yang Chow Fried rice! Lols! Yeah, so bus-ed down to Sunplaza. We spent quite a long time at KFC, well mainly because 80% of our time, we were talking away. Well, head home after that.

Not long after I reached home, Yeesuan sms-ed me about going to the gym. It's an obvious answer. Of cause i said yes, because i've been growing sideways and i'm tired of people saying "Wow Jolene! you've gained weight! Your butt look so much bigger now!" *Gasp! Well, most of the time, I'm alone. So running alone aint fun at all. In fact, I need at least one person to accompany me for motivation actually. People, that's how i roll. She arrived approximately at 4pm and as usual, we slacked for awhile before heading down to the gym. Haha! Unfortunately, when we went down, the gym was totally packed, so we ended up jogging near the canal. We jogged all the way to sembawang beach(Honestly, we walked most of the journey. :D). Wait! Actually, it was somewhere near this 'Country Club' which is pretty near the beach. But, we did not head to the beach. Instead, we turned around and walked back. We were fooling around and, Yeesuan was too lazy to run lah! *Tsk Tsk Tsk! We ran when we reached the bridge and I took a head start. Haha, that head start was both lucky and unlucky actually! I accidentally stepped on a snake(Almost!), and... I SAW A SNAKE! That's the lucky part. :D Hahaha! i know, you must be thinking, 'Never seen a snake before meh?! Zoo dont have arh? Aiyo, girl, you have no childhood man!' Right?! Yeah, yeah! Well, dont you think it is rather surprising to see a snake out of the zoo?! Haha, I know I'm overreacting. Hah! What are you gonna do about it? hmmmmm~ :D Anyway, it gave me quite a shock because I did not have my specs or contacts on, so I could not see clearly. But, it looked like an extremely large worm wiggling on the pathment, and it looked goldenish-black. Hey, but i'm not afraid of snakes alright? I was just shocked. I hate surprises. Imagine what is it like to have something wiggling infront of you or on your shoulder, touching you, what's your reaction? And please, this is to the humans.

Anyway, we spent about an hour and 15 minutes outside and we reached home, stinky! All thanks to the fertilisers along the road. Major stinkiness, i tell you! Urggh, I can still smell that stinkiness. Not because I didnt take a shower, it's just in my head. Alright, we had to bus down to her house because my mum was not feeling at all well. Ate dinner. Then, my aunt and I had to take a cab back home.

So there you go... Aint that interesting huh? Heeee, I know. :D Whatever.

The rain poured down, and no one knew...

Sayonara`
Jol!