heyy, watz up .. haix, without my laptop, i'm really not used to it. haix .. y ?! y my com ?! i juz had this quarrel with my aunt, juz bcuz my couz and i wanted to go out together, she started screaming at us man .. i mean, wat is this ?! we are like secondaries, cant we hv more freedom?! if we are kept in our hse 24/7, there is no diff frm a primary school kid ! now, they are like putting chains on us. i bet she is gonna complain to my mum. my mum is gonna keep me in the hse. my aunt is gonna fetch my couz and meet her frenz. wat is this ?! now, we dun hv the rights to make our own frenz ?! if this ever happens to me, i'm so gonna leave my hse. okay, i know i'm over reacting bt i cnt help it. i'm totally freaking out ..

anyway, today, i met xn, audrey francesca and two other sec 1 frenz. we went to the photoshop and develop some photos for the photography competition. then ltr, we went to gerel's hse and played his playstation. haha, it was so fun ! bt abit paiseh cuz, we only went there to play his playstation and left. haha.

yesterday, i went out with shiqi, audrey, kelvin, johnathan, jeffery, nicholas and gerel. we actually wanted to go to escape bt we didnt know tt is only opens at 7pm cuz of holloween. so we went cycling instead. bt is was fun too. cuz we went cycling for like 2 hrs and i was racing with jeffery and kel, bt i kinda lost cuz after cycling for like 1 hrs plus, my leg kinda ached so i had to stop. when i was walking to this stall to buy my drinks, i cant really stand properly, my leg dun really hv much energy left. haha. after returnin the bikes, we went to this maze bt infact, it isnt a maze. after tt we went home. many things happen while gg home. haha, i dun wanna say.

okay gotta go now, sayonara ~

oh man !! why is this happening to me ?! i think my hand is carrying some kind of virus which affects computers !! every computer i touch, there will be some problems with it ltr. ahh, i cnt power on my laptop, my mum's laptop cnt access to internet, and my bro's gf's laptop became more laggy then b4. haix. those were the laptops i touch and now, problems arose. bt luckily, yesterday, i asked my bro's gf if her laptop is fine and she said yea .. haha, was i relieved or wat ? so now, i cnt go online or make new entries tt often anymore. i'm in school now, using the school's com. haix.

today is the last day of school. woohoo ! school is out man ! 2 months of non-stop fun ! woohoo ! bt i won't be able to see him tt often anymore, tt's the disadvantage. *sob* feelings r juz growin in me .. loving him more and more. x) hope we cn last long. =)

i might be gg out with my couz tml or mayb with my sec frenz. still not sure. i'll be gg to japan in 3 weeks time. i'm so looking forward to tt trip. i'll be gg there with my best couz. it will be the first time gg to such a cold place with my couz. the results are out, and sadly, i only got two As. ahh !! i regretted not studying hard. anyway, no point regretting it now, wat's done is done. i've been slacking for the whole exam period. okay this really make me happy for a while, my chinese passed man ! overall, i passed !! PASSED !!

gotta go now, feeling kinda sick and i wanna go home, bye ~ sayonara ~

today was a blast man ! oh ya, first thing first. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY !!

before the concert, we went to the seafood restaurant and ate till we drop dead. okay, not really drop dead, juz bloated. we ordered our fav. , CRAYFISH !! it was fantastic. i was lucky this time, i watched my mum eat her crayfish 1st before touching mine, and my crayfish didnt fly. haha ! usually it will though.

we went to WANG LEE HOM's concert ! woohoo ! wahh, he is so shuai !! bt it was still the same, the four of us juz sat there lookin at all the crazy fans shoutin his name. oh ya, jap fans came all the way to s'pore juz to see his concert. haha. bt i cn understand, he is juz fantastic. my mum juz cnt stop sayin " woah ! he's so talented !! " lee hom cn play the piano, violin, guitar, drums and not to forget, he's dancing to so sexy ! haha, oops forgive me. i juz cldnt forget this concert. it was juz wonderful !

gotta go bye ~ sayanora.

yesterday was my couz's bday, yee suan. we went out together in the afternoon. actually, my uncle fetch us to bugis. on the way to bugis, my uncle showed me this gismo which u cn plug into ur ipod and turn ur radio to a station and there ! u cn hear ur ipods song like it is direactly frm the radio station. it was damn cool !! when we reached seiyu, we were like lookin for the restroom .. cuz suan was like controllin for the whole trip. hahah ! anyway, we went lookin for the route to bugis .. fortunately, we made our way to bugis. we were looking for my mum's b'day present bt we ended up buyin our stuff first. haha, we spent like over $100 for newbie stuff .. bt it was worth buyin, u know ? it was so cute ! we bought pure milk t-shirts too. so COOL !! and soon, i went broke !! woah ! this was the first time i felt so useless. i didnt hv any money left and i had the b'day gurl to pay all the stuff for me. haix .. now, i even spent all my savings ! ahh, i totally broke man !! wat am i gonna do ?! now, i'm totally useless. sld i go find a job ? haix .. wadeva .. we took neoprints too and went to watch silk. man ! was it scary ? i was totally freakin out. haha, suan was watchin the 2nd time. she liked it so much, wat cn i say ..

after the show, my uncle came to fetch us home. i went back to suan's place and we were like checking out our stuff. now, i duno y bt i juz wanna shop some more .. haha. suan has influenced me. wat cn i say, now, she has became the shoppin princess. okay i gotta go now, sayonara !!

they are my best buds !! drey, france and xn !!

wow !! today, i had a great time ! i had a bbq party in sch. the cool part is tt it's at NIGHT !! haha, i was kinda freaking out there. there first thing i did when we r in sch is tt we rushed to the toilet !! cuz it was freakin hot and we needa cool ourselves down. honestly, i was late again. if i really continue being late, no one is gonna go out with me anymore. anyway, we had our dinner 1st bt i didnt want to eat too much cuz i juz ate a plate of chicken rice before cuming for the bbq. bt in the end, i ate like two plates of bee hoon, a chicken wing, a hot dog, and oh ya, mashmallow !! tt was super ! oh then we played games. one games was sth to do with wacking, the other was the musical chair and true or dare. wahh, it ain't fun ! i didnt get picked when playin true or dare. i was playing the same game in class with my classmates and i oso didnt get picked and this time, it was the same ! haix. anyway, after 9.30, we had to clean up and i followed xn to the toilet. she was in the toilet and i was outside waiting for her. haha, i was kinda askin xn to hurry up and i was there freaking out cuz it was damn quiet. so after quite some time, she came out and i raced her to the bbq pit and haha, i won !! then, xn, daniel and i walked to sunplaza. drey and france took their dad's car home. then xn took mrt home. daniel and i took a cab back home. haha, thx dan !

gtg bye ~

today, i met my baby again ( of cuz ), ahhhh !! i was late again !! cant help it ! haix .. anyway, me and my baby walked to sch together as usual. i went for photography today again. went to take picx for the health fare. bt i took some picx with audrey and daniel and went back to class. it was damn boring ! so i went back to class and joined francesca and the group, we played true or dare. i was so lucky, for the whole game, i didnt get picked. bt it ain't fun for me. i juz sat there, waitin to be my turn. oh ya ! mostly half of the class pon school today. our class kinda became quieter. hahaha ! after recess, we played another game bt i duno watz the name for it. bt when mr lam's lesson came, man ! it was like torture ! we had to do worksheets and we started to do sec 3 stuff. lampo became very strict. he even told the whole sch to re-sing the national anthem. haix .. during CME, ms dawn chia brought up some board games for us to play. bt it's all related to english. there's scrabble, up words and two other games which i forgot the name .. haha, after sch, i was told tt my baby was outside bt when i turned arnd, i saw him, covering his face and telling me to like walk first ? so anyway, i juz did. then i heard tt ms chia told my baby to help her carry the games and stuff. so instead of gg down with me, my baby went down with ms chia. bt we met outside the teacher's stuff room. oh ya, m i suitable to be ur gurl ? i juz cant stop wondering. anyway, i had to arrange my tuition timing as i'm hving a bbq tonight. so i was like busy talkin on the phone and ignorin my baby. i feel so bad ! haix .. when i reached the busstop, we juz bid farewell, and my baby juz went home. haix, the bus was damn pack so instead of boarding the first one, i waited for the nxt bus.

okay, i think tt all. tata for now.

woohoo !! i'm gg to my photography bbq now. tml, there ain't any sch cuz it's promotion day. i'm sad, i cnt go sch with my baby tml. *sob* anyway, there's oways monday. kekex. hm, better go prepare before i'm late again !! i'll update ltr.

bye~

heyys. today, i didnt meet my bestie cuz she will be gg to school at 7 plus as her school starts at 8 today. man ! i'm so jealous !! well, i still get to meet my baby. haha, well, of cuz i was late again. so we went to school today. the sec 2s hv a inter-class competition bt i'm juz too lazy to take part. anyway, the floorball team 2 do not hv enough players so we forfeited. so i accompanied xn and francesca to take some photograph for the games and the concert and stuff. it was damn tiring cuz we gotta run arnd and stuff. tml, i still gotta go take some photograph with audrey. i feel like quiting photography. when i was taking photo of the soccer game with francesca, i got hit by the freakin soccer ball for 3 times !! 3 TIMES !!! ohh, my back hurts so much. oww ..

after the inter-class, we totally had no lesson ! bt it was kinda boring. so i was like staring into blank space thinking of him. hahaha !! so i took out my ipod to listen to some music. i was like listening half way and talkin to lihong when mr james came in. i turned and saw him, and i was really certained tt he as lookin at me ! i was so dumb. i used the right ear piece where james cn see from outside the class. i quickly take the ear piece out and quickly keep my hp. man ! was i lucky or wat ? he came in and he kinda confiscated my fren's hp. he sat on the teacher's table again. ( man ! that table is gonna collapse one day ! so many teachers sat on it like so many times. i bet even before i came to css. ) hahaha ! nahh, i dun think the table is tt weak. anyway, he went out and after a few minutes, he came in again. he showed us the deck of poker cards he confiscated tt day to us and said " it will be confiscated whenever a teacher sees it. " then every one was like yea we know. so my fren realised tt the deck of cards mr james was holding was his ! anyway, after tt i didnt dare to take my ipod out again. so i kinda slept on my table until arnd 1.15pm. was kinda tired though.

after school, my baby was waiting for me outside my class and we followed my frenz to return the cameras. ltr, we walk out the school and my frenz were taking the bus outside the school so i juz said bye to them. then i juz walked with my baby to the busstop near his hse. on the way there, we kinda chat for awhile. yea, so he went off first when we reached the busstop. so i guess tt it.

bye ~

omg ! today i got back my freaking exams paper. well, i only got back 4 scripts. my math i got 60 as it was very difficult. dun believe ? ask my math teacher, ask everyone from my class.

haha, i juz got back from detention. today, i very suay ! i wanted to play poker cards. the cards were in the process of giving out and suddenly, someone shouted " MR Z !! " haha, then everyone rushed back to their seats. then when mr-z was gone. we went back to the cards. haha, when i was re-arranging my deck. suddenly, my frenz were like acting real weird. i was like " oh freak ! " i looked behind, i saw my worse nightmare. MR JAMES !! he took away the deck of cards. at first, he didnt want to give us detention. he went to the teacher's table and sat there. he was staring at the deck of cards and i think he didnt know wat to do next so he said " david write down the names of those who were playing juz now. " when david gave him the paper, mr james read out the names, and it was only four. i was like " wat the hell ! " there were others before me. haix, so unlucky ! didnt get to play and i gotta go detention. after school, my baby came to look for me, i think he wanted to leave school together or sth bt i told him tt i hv to go detention. haha, i think i gave him a shock. sry baby ! so at 1.30, i went to the dentention room, and it was my first time writing a statement form. i duno wat is it for bt i juz hope tt my mum doesnt know abt it. xn, francesca, audrey and shiqi, they were so nice ! they waited for me till i finish my detention class. they are so cool man !

signing off ~

i wanna disappear frm this world right now !! (if i ever cld) i wanna hurt myself, make myself die slowly, slowly disappear frm ur sight, i'm really in a mess right now ! though i know it's my fault, i sleep late, i'm late for every meeting, i late for sch, i'm late for every thing alright ?!?! bt i'm tryin to change ! a few weeks b4 exams, i tried sleepin early, and well, i did. i slept alittle earlier. i tried preparing earlier bt i'm still late when i'm meetin my frenz. wat cn u say, it's ordy my habit and i tried changin ! now, i'm still tryin. while talking to my tuition tcher, u try to act big, though u r bt u ain't oways like tt. do u know wat ?! after scolding me, i really wanna go against u even more. u r tryin to increase the hatred in me. i really feel like dying, feel like disappearing frm this world. bt i juz cnt, cuz of u. thinkin of dying, i think of wat u wld end up like. my heart ached real bad. tears dripped continuously. i feel like running away, away frm this lyfe ! i dun wanna live in such a life. do u think i wan this to happen ?! do u think i dun wan to change ?! now, after talking my freakin tuition tcher, u wanna take all my freedom away. now, i really cnt breathe. hatred is trying to kill me ! if u ever take all the things i hv now, u will see a different person instead of the real me. u will regret. i'll be juz living in this person's shadows, not allowed to come out ever again. bt if u really wan me to change, if it really makes u happy, if it really save ur face, i'll change. i'll be ur doll, dress me wateva u like, change my attitude if u wan to. the only reason is bcuz, iloveyou, mummy ! though u increased the hatred in me, i'll oways loveyou.

that's suan, smsin her baby !! hahaha ! see, she so engross in msgin her baby ! whootx !
okay, this is definately different. OUR SHOES !! suanx & jol. haix, us again ! u can't stand it ordy right ? yea, i know.
haha, i'm da worse man ! mayb i too ugly ordy thats y becum so zhi lian.
us again ! we r zhi lian kuans ..
me and ma best couz !! zhilian-ing in marina square !! she's so pretty rite ?
* like duhhh ... *

haha, i'm so happy today ! i went out with my couz, yee suan and her family, today. was suppose to meet them at 12.30 or 12.45 bt i woke up at 11.30. if it wldnt be for my mum, i wld still be in bed. actually, i cld hv slept till 1 or 2 plus as i kinda slept at 6am last night. haha, i was watchin the " silent" so nice, bt i fell aslp while watching. bt it was reaching the end when i slp so i think i didnt miss anything. haha, i told my mum and my aunt and both of them called me " u crazy ! " hahah, then i told my uncle tt i cnt meet them so early and i only cn meet them at 2pm. so they said okay and went for lunch without me. so as usual, i was late again. -.- haix. * y m i cursed with this bad habit ?! * so i kinda meet them at 3pm instead. haha, i made them waited for 1hr. oh man ! i'm damn nasty ! * who cn help me lift this curse ?! * haha, * shut up, dun sprout nonsense ! wat curse ?! crazy !! * so, when i met them, my little couz said, " u r late again !! give me 60 push-ups !! " though, i heard her, i totally ignore her. sry little couz ! we went shoppin after tt. we went to the wallet shop 1st and i got attracted by this two bags. i wanted to buy them bt i told my couz tt i wanna go see the bags in ripcurl and roxy. later, we went to this creative shop. wow ! the stuff there were like so COOL !! i want one !! bt i dun really hv to money to buy. then, we went to ripcurl and i saw this skirt which is super cool ! bt we went to look at roxy. sadly the stuff there were not my type. haha !

so we kinda went in and out of ripcurl and roxy. finally, i bought a ripcurl pencil case. then, we went to shop some other stuff. then, i went to the wallet shop with my couz, yee suan. i asked her which bag was better, so she pick out one for me. suddenly, i remembered tt i needa buy sth for her. her b'day is cumin ! 20 oct. so i told her to pick one bag out. eventually, we, both bought the same bag. haha, i kinda forced her to choose one. btw, we went to this jap restaurant and i ate my lunch, cuz i kinda hven had my lunch yet. then we shop alittle more and went back home.

signing off ~

heyys. today, i went to celebrate daniel's b'day with some other frenz. they are brandon, terrence, matthias, manting, manting's brother, audrey and me. cheryl was suppose to cum but she was sick. at first, manting and i were planning to bash cheryl up when we meet her bt since she was sick, we forgive her. we were like tryin to contact her and her handphone was like off and no one picked up when i called her hse. so it is like she disappeared suddenly. bt i think she wanna take a rest so she didnt ans the calls. well, i cn understand. cuz i'm not heartless. haha, so we were planning to watch 'death note' bt it was 3.35. so matthias told us tt he cnt make it for the show cuz he was meeting his fren at arnd 3 or 4 plus. so he told us to watch without him. well, then we went to causeway as we tot tt the timing for the show wld be earlier bt unfortunately, it was even later .. -.- it was 5 plus. we went back to yishun to catch the 3.35 show. likely, we made it. the show was so nice, i was totally into the show. bt when it was ending, -.- ''' there ain't any ENDING !!! i think there is a part 2 or sth. anyway, i accompanied audrey to buy some of her hair accesories and we home. well, i went to my couz hse instead.

when i told her tt i watched 'death note', she said " u sldnt hv watched tt show, it's wastin ur money.' so i asked her y. she replied " dun ya know ? it's juz a sneek preview. no use watching." oh man ! i was totally freaked out by then. i was suppose to meet my couz at the mrt and go to orchard to shop bt she ended up lookin after her hse instead. cuz there ain't anyone at home except her, her aunt and sis. so mayb we might b gg tml or some other days. i kinda feel bad when i told my couz to skip her tuition bt exams r ordy over so it's time to relax. am i right ? anyway, i played auditions today. i played with manting and man ! she was like trashing me. she is really a dancing queen. haha, my couz was kinda freaked out when my baby came online. she kept sayin my baby cute ( well, he is ! ) so she got this idea of switchin boyfriends for a year. so i said yea sure, after 2006, he's back with me, and so she gave me a 'lame' look. haha ! btw i was kiddin abt tt. so she called her hubby up and while she was talkin to him, i kinda did alot of things to irritate her and interupt her conver. haha i'm nasty, i know. i'm oways like tt when ever she's talking on the phone with a guy. haha ! and she kept callin me childish. wat cn u say, i cnt help myself.

gotta go .. bye ~

signing off ~

heyys. i'm back from s'pore expo. i went for the innovationation trip. it's all abt technologies. it's more like the stuff we r using in the future .. this morning i went to sch with my baby and i'm so happy. for the first time, i was early !! yeahhh !! cuz, cheryl gotta go to sch early. we went to the hall for a briefing on the trip to s'pore expo. on 8.45, we went down to the canteen for a break and i was hvin my so called breakfast. then on 9.40 or so, my classmates and i boarded the bus. on the way to s'pore expo, i was listening to my ipod and i suddenly doze off. i think i kinda hv this habit of slpin in movin vehicles. i duno y bt i will feel tired suddenly. we went lookin at high tech stuff. it was so COOL !! i wan one too !! at the end of the tour, we get to take picx of ourselves and it was submitted to the system there. haha ! many submitted goofy picx. well, i took a pic with xn and francesca. they took one by themselves too. and i guess tts all.

tml is daniel's b'day party. we r gg for a movie i think. after tt, i might be gg to orchard with my couz for SHOPPING !! haha ! woohoo ! my couz is totally not playin arnd this time. she's totally serious abt her relationship ! so happy for her. and she gotta give me $5 for tt. haha ! she sld know. *evil grin* oh ya, i might be gg with her and her brave knight.

signing off ~

heyys. i'm back frm my movie. today, i was late AGAIN !! i kinda took a taxi to the sembawang mrt to meet my baby. for the first time ever, we went out together. well, it's really the first time, nv went out the last time with *ahem. who cares ? haha ! was kinda awkward. wat cn u say, it's the first time. oh ya ! i totally feel so weird. i'm oways sweatin ! i'm juz like a freakin pig ! sweat all day long. haiix. so we took the mrt to causeway point and suddenly daniel called, he asked me where i m. then i said tt i'm in the train which is reachin admiralty ( did i spell rite ? ) then he was like " really ?! i'm in the train oso reachin tt station ! " then i look arnd and saw a guy wearin a green and white shirt holdin his hp talkin. then i told daniel on the phone " turn arnd " then tt guy turned arnd and it was daniel. haha ! so funny ! then we got off and went to find audrey.

it was gettin late so we went to buy the tickets 1st. after buying the ticx, we waited for xn and shiqi to arrive. haha ! me and my baby was too shy to say anything. we totally kept quiet until they came. so we went in and bought our popcorn and stuff. i kinda didnt dare to buy the popcorn as i didnt no wat to say so i asked my baby if he cld help me buy. woah !! he's so gd, he bought it for me ! ohh, then i forgot to ask for the drinks so i had to buy it again. then suddenly daniel wanted to buy the set which consist of one large popcorn and two coke. then he only needed one so he gave it to me. then i shared the drink and popcorn with my baby. haha ! guess wat ? i watched the show rob-b-hood again. it was so funny ! it was worth watchin bt my mum is gonna strangle me when i tell her tt. hahaha ! after the show, we went to take some neoprints. it's my baby's first time so he juz sat there and pose. daniel was like us as he had taken it b4. bt i was told to sit next to my baby. haha ! audrey, xn and shiqi were designing the picx so they did funny things to the picx. haha ! after something funny happen bt too bad, i dun wanna say .. =P . then, tts it, we all went home. =) great day guys !!

signing off ~

heyys ! oh man !! exams are over ! they r finally oveERRR !!! oh, i hv been dreamin abt this day. no needa study anymore. free ... totally free ! bt still gotta see the results. which will not be as gd as my previous exams. haiix .. today, was science. okay, the paper was kinda tricky and i think i wrote alot of crap. anyway, duncare ! it's over. i cnt do anything now, i cnt go back time so y worry abt it ?

later, i'm gg to watch movie with shiqi, xn and audrey. actually francesca wanna go bt she realised tt we hv our reason for lettin daniel go too. well, anyway my baby is gg too.

okay, gotta go. bye ~

ahhhhhh !!!! i totally hate my lyfe !!! today, i had my math exam which was totally a DISASTER !!! this morning, i was finding ma freakin` curve rule. at first, i thought it was in my bag the whole time. i planned to put it before i sleep and i was like " ohh, wat the heck. it wont run away, i'll put it in tomorrow. " so when i check my bag the nxt morning. i was like " O.O ?! where the heck is ma curve rule ?!?! " i opened all my drawers and i cnt freakin` find it. " oh shit ! i needa go now bt where the heck is ma freakin` curve rule ?!?! " i asked cheryl if she had her's with her now and she told me tt she had to used it today too. later, i thought of my baby, so i asked him if he had one bt unfortunately, he didnt hv one. so i asked xn, france and shihui. bt they do not hv any extra curve rule and wow ! i was beginning to sweat. i didnt no y. so i looked at my clock, " 6.38am". i quickly rushed out and walked to the busstop. by tt time, i was really sweating alot.

cheryl was asking me if i found my curve rule and i said " i cnt find it, i totally give up ! " on the way to the mrt, it was really getting late. i was suppose to meet my baby at 7am and it was like " 6.57am". it's the first time walkin to sch with my baby, and i was late ! haix .. such an embarrassment ! i walked as fast as i cld. from far, i cld oready see my baby standing, waiting. i feel so bad. when i finally meet him, i was sweating like a freak !! cnt believe it man ! i really no face le !! we didnt talk much though. when i'm in sch, i went to ask ms puspa if i cld go find mr wong. she said after gg up to class. when i reach my class, i wanted to ask ms puspa if i cld be excuse so tt i cld go ask for curve rule and guess wat she did ? she handed me a curve rule ! wow ! she totally rox man ! she totally saved my lyfe ! i tot she was those who dun really care bt i was wrong ! she's totally cool man !! i cnt believe it ! bt too bad, i didnt freakin` get to finish my paper !! the clock in class was totally spoilt and no one bothered to change due to exams ! so i lost track of time ! if i ever fail ma maths and dun get into triple science, i'm totally gonna kill myself !! xn, drey, france and me found out tt this time the paper was much more difficult then last yr's. well, it's not those difficult due to our level, bt it's those kind that so call "dun allow those average students to get into A math. " i wanna get into triple science and A maths if not, i whole future is totally ruined !!( well, i kinda exaggerated alittle.)

tomorrow is the final exam paper !! which is science !! -.- <>

suan and me r back together again. well, she wrote an email to me. so from there, we settled our problem and our best couz relationship is saved ! cuz, we are gg to japan for holiday so y not settle it now. i was the pettied one. she was the first who wanted to settle it. it was expected as she was the easy-going one and i'm the hot-tempered one. btw, cheryl got some credit too. she had a chat with my couz and it made my couz to change her mind. all thanks to my bestie, CHERYL THAM SHITTY-ASS !! oops. i meant CHERLY THAM SHIYING !! haha ! japan, JAPAN ! here we cum !!

signing off ~

today juz had my art exams and math paper 1. man ! the freakin math paper 1 had so many pages and had so many hard qns tt requires us to think alot. we were like slowly thinkin and checking for mistakes in our working when mr lam said : " you have 10 minutes left. " and i heard a few ppl saying : " shit ! " and i was like : " O.O !! wat the hell !! " i was still half way through the paper. i begin to rush and i skipped many qns. i cant help it man ! is like i see the qns and it requires alot of calculations, i will juz move on to the nxt one. unfortuanately, all needs alot of calculations so i juz did those i'm really sure. haha ! fer art, oh man ! it's a disaster again ! i didnt really prepare much. bt i think it is much better then the one i did in mid-yr.

okay, i was feeling kinda down lately after quarrelling with my couz. though, it isn't tt obvious, i was really hurt tt day. i cnt believe tt she wld say such things to me when she didnt get wat she wanted. i passed by my couz's blog today, and i kinda regretted wat i said the previous blog. bt this is my character, wat do u wan me to do ?! i hv to trash this anger away before it pollutes me and u dun wan tt to happen. of cuz u gotta let it out some how. so for me, i trashed it in here. it's not my fault for becuming so inhuman to my couz. i dun like ppl to scold me with vulgarities,
especially my fav. couz. i kinda realised tt she is becuming more gangsta like. dun blame me, suan. bt tts my point of view. actually, i didnt wanna break ties with u. bt whenever i remember the sentence u said abt gettin ur gang and beatin me up, tt kind of tone is kinda tellin me tt u wanna break the ties between us. u hv never said such things to me before, do u know how much it hurts me ?! if u really think tt i only cared abt myself, i dun hv to treat u so nice tt i oways neglect ning. i bet ning is thinkin y we hv oways neglected her. cuz ! we hv been best couz for like ... FOREVER !! i oso cnt believe tt chen lao shi wld bed mouth me. tts y i said i cnt trust anyone else anymore. u know watz the feeling of being back-stabbed for two times ? let me ask u, wld u trust anyone else after being back-stabbed for two time ?! i wld not want to be betrayed the third time again ! u cnt understand how i'm feelin right now ! do u think i wan such things to happen ?!

after reading ur letter, suan. i cn forgive u bt it may not be my 100% trust anymore. i've been hurt real bad, it takes time to be fully recovered. i tot u know me well. u were the close-est. i forgive u unless u stop using those vulgarities. i dun like ppl to used such foul words. especially the word gangs. i will write a letter to u instead.

signing off ~

our coloured wrist bands.
they were given at the festival party.
woo, huge fire ! we took dried leaves
and other dried stuff and burn, wakakaka ~
arsonists in action !
haha ! nahh, it's juz my couz and our
aunties playin with candles.

suan, ning and me. our slippers.
me and ning !
suan and me. couz fer lyfe.
will it last ?
our mini- camp fire.
a heart burning in the night.
haha ! i had nth better to do so i made tt.
look carefully !! cnt see ?! right click it and save
it !! its frm my conver. history. check it out urself !!

today, i went out with my mum, bro and my da sao, kayan jie. we went to watch the "rob b hood" jackie chan was in there too. haha ! it was so hilarious ! it's highly recommended by me! ^.^ the baby in there was so cutee !! his eyes is so bright and beautiful. i almost cried when jackie chan sacrificed to save the baby. the baby is so lucky !!

we went shoppin after the show. * oh ya, my bro and kayan jie was late again today. they kinda missed 1 quater of the show. * my bro and kayan jie went off by themselves. so i was with my mum. we spent like an hr and a half at the first shop which is stuff fer my mum. not really my type. bt my freakin flu was irritatin me. i was at the edge of exploding. so i told my mum to hurry up. so we went up and we pass by S&K. so i went in and bought a pair of jeans and a top. then we went to the "winter shop" and bought our winter clothings. by tt time, i was feeling worse. my freakin nose itched real bad and i wanted to sneeze bt unfortunately, i cnt !! tears begin to fill in my eyes. it was so uncomfortable !! so we went home.

i drank chicken soup and ate this mornings' breakfast, luncheon meat sandwich. ohh, tt was freakin fattening ! ohh, then the war starts. when i turned on my com and signed into my msn, my couz asked me for ytd's picx ( we celebrated mid autumn festival, we made mini camp fires) picx up there ^ . haha ! and we quarrelled juz bcuz she didnt get the picx. i send it ordy bt she said tt nth came out. i got the freakin evidence !! she said things tt i dun wanna mention. wat ever she said, she's gonna regret saying it. well, i guess she doesnt know me well yet. i hv seen her true colours and my chinese tutor's too. honestly, in this world, no one is trustable. even those who r really close to yer. those who oways share secrets with yer. u wont know when will they back-stab yer. haha! it has happened twice in my life. i hv lost trust in ppl. okayz i dun wanna talk abt it anymore. if i ever fail my chinese exams, i dun wan any chinese tuition ever again ! hope my mum agrees with it !

signing off ~

ohh, it has been a week and we hv juz met up for only a few times. it's all the freaking exminations' fault !! haix, got this feeling tt he's abit bored being with me. oh ya ! tts right, i'm freakin boring. mayb i'm not suitable. wondering ~

it's ordy half way through the examinations, still gotta wait for 5 more days and i cn b totally free, i tell yer, FREEeee .. !!! woo, sry abt the insane-ness. it's so stressful ! and worse thing is tt i'm coming down with a common cold. cnt concentrate during exams cuz of my block nose !! haix ..

i'm gg to my couz hse later for the mid autumn festival. my couz's neighbourhood oways organize a gathering during mid autumn festival. well, it will oways b the same bt my couz's parents bought the ticx so i had to go. at least i cn see my frenz again. i miss them ever since i've moved. haha ! they wld say : " really ? dun act la ! " haha !

signing off ~