man, i'm so beat! i had my O level chinese today and of cause, having to experience the seriousness in the hall for the first time, made me damn nervous. my mind aint thinking straight back then. this was what happen, i became superbly BLUR! we were told to peel off the upper portion of the bar codes, and so, as i peeled the sticker off, the other end of the sticker rolled and was stuck on the bar code itself. so i tried peeling off. fortunately, i manage to peel it off but, the ink of the bar code got stuck on to the sticky part. okay, it didnt look that damaged, so i just hacked care. i hope, seriously hope nothing goes wrong... PLEASE! anyway, as i mentioned before, the atmosphere was superbly tense that made my head spin. my mind was blank and i took quite alot of time thinking of what to write for my essays. but for my paper 2, atmosphere aint that tense. haha, immuned already?

anyway, that's just a summary of how it is like to take O levels. oh well.

oh, i would like to thank my lovely brother who sent me to school today. he had to wake up early in the morning just to sent me off to school, aint that just so sweet? well, i guess my dad was in it too. if he hadnt mention it to my brother, i dont think he would wake up that early for the sake of sending me. anyway, wanna thank both of you.

anyway, i'm superbly beat now. had to finish up my physic notes by the end of this friday, if not, i'm toast!

sayonara`
Jol!

well, sorraye but this post just aint gonna be pretty again. cause something made me freaking pissed!

this aint the first time, i tell you! it's really getting on my nerves and i really cant stand it no more! i actually missed the bus AGAIN! *well i know what you're thinking, but could you let me finish? thankyou.* :D i was at the busstop at my usual timing. so i stood there, listening to my music and waiting for the bus patiently. then 859 came, as i stepped forward, raising up my hand for the bus, it just drove pass me. i repeat, IT JUST DROVE PASS ME!!! what?! am i too slow? or is the bus driver just driving off too fast? too fast to even see if there's any people who wanted to board the bus! i mean, from what i've observed, most bus would just drive in, to even see if there's anyone going to board. but that freaking driver didnt! he just drove off, without having the initiative to drive in and probably wait a second or two to see if anyone is boarding! it's not like there's only me standing at the busstop, there's like 10 over people standing there! And i just rushed forward like an idiot, waving at the bus driver and he just drove pass me! WHAT IS THAT?! there's so many people, INCLUDING naval base and canberra students there! being incharge of 859, dont you think the bus driver should even have the basic knowledge that they are driving towards canberra sec?! THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME ALREADY! okay, the other times may be excusable cause there's another bus infront, so maybe the 859 bus driver wasnt able to have a clear view, and so drove off. okay, that didnt piss me off that much. but this time is just plain ridiculous! there aint any bus infront, i rushed forward, he drove too quickly that somehow seems to have just missed his turning. so like i said, was i the slow one, or was he just driving off too quickly?!?!?! all this " missed the bus" had caused me to be late for school SEVERAL TIMES already! well, after i had missed my bus again, i waited there, no longer patient anymore. i really felt like going home and just skip school! but well, i didnt. being a desperate kid, the moment a taxi with a green light appear, i quickly jumped out, hoping to get a ride. but nooo..., he just drove pass me too... so several taxi drove pass me and unluckily, there were people inside. then 859 came, so had no choice but to board the bus. OBVIOUSLY, i was late again! it's the freaking 4th time! * i aint gonna go for detention!*

it's the run today, and after DM released us, i went up to class, left my bag there and went out of class. i was totally not in the mood for anything but running all my anger out! but something else cheered me up, my embaressment! haha! it's hilarious, it's still in my head now. Lols. i was walking towards the field and i just fell down this small, diminish slope. Lols, it's early in the morning and the grass is still wet from all the morning dew. so i just slipped and fell into the kneeling position. Lols. sahil and GZ was behind me, i was superbly embaressed. but then, it cheered me up. i couldnt stop laughing. Lols. i know, i'm weird. so the next thing that made my anger totally went away was my lovely friends. they just made my day. without them, i may just be the most unfriendly person in the world. i really love you guys. so i jogged with them, played along the way, ran our lungs out, it was just the medicine that helped my anger management.

well, it's gonna be another school day tmr, so let's see if i really missed the bus again.

sayonara`
JoL!

PS: you guys may think i'm alittle petty, but this is how limited my patience is... cause it's just not the first time!

neglection of my blog! i'm sorraye people. :D

16o5o8

anyway... firstly, i wanna dedicate this to my oh-so-lovely granny!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (:

17o5o8

it's gym day, so my cousins came over to my place in the late afternoon and we slacked alittle before going to the gym. wonderful thing was that we're celebrating mother's day today. though it's over but we never had the chance to celebrate together. so it's decided that we had to have dinner together. but sad thing was, my brother and his girl aint joining us. for some reason which it's for me to know and for you...(Ah! you should know the rest. :D) haha, i had my usuals, it's damn mouth-watering even if it's on the menu. after dinner, it's shoppinggg ... but! it was close to closing time, so most of the shops had closed for the night. instead, we went to coldstorage for gorcery shopping. then it's off to home-sweet-home. :D

18o5o8

Eh! let loose your voice cause it's time for karaoke! well, that's at night. :D anyway, i had my hair done today. i guess the change aint that obvious but still, i had it done today. :D:D:D i've been waiting for this day to come for months! & finally, my mummy made an appointment for my grandmother and me. later, had dinner at my cousin's place. not long after dinner, ning followed us for karaoke and we all had a wild wild night. singing our voice out. haha! loved it! PS: let's go again some other time alright? *yeah!

i'm out.

sayonara`

JoL!

damn, why would you wanna keep something from me when that "something" is RELATED to my past?! well, since i've requested you to spill for freakingly loads of times, it's gonna be my problem if i feel hurt or not... i'm pretty sure that i have the right to know what the hell is it! i know my tone is harsh, but it's all because i've freakingly asked so many damn times! FYI, my patience is very limited... i'm feeling awfully uncomfortable right now... so please, i'm begging you... it aint fun anymore! no no, actually IT'S NOT FUN AT ALL!

i dont know why the hell am i freaking out... and i've noticed that most of my recent post aint pretty at all. i'm sorraye but things just happens this way... i wanted to post about my boring day but things just pop up! sorraye to whoever is reading my blog.

anyway, the geography students were suppose to get their results today, but! our teacher didnt come to school... i've gotten all my results except geography! hopefully, we can get it by tomorrow. by the way, my results aint that pretty, it's super uber UGLY! but of cause, i've made alittle improvements( yeah me! (: ). but still, it's close to the last time ...

ohohoh, wanna thank joseph, my brother's friend, for helping me with my work... what a nice chap (: .

i guess that's all for now...

sayonara`
JOL!

gosh! it's so worth passing for... i will study for the sake of you, my darling! NO MORE self-discouragements, NO MORE laziness and more importantly, NO MORE GOOFYING around! it's time to get serious. you're my whole life's dream, what an opportunity to have the chance to achieve such great treasure... from what i was told that this is the one and only last chance i have! come to think of it, having such goal ahead of me, will just be killing two birds with one stone... able to be with you and enjoy the rest of my life...

well, not exactly enjoy my life but at least aint gonna suffer from what i will be going through this year. like what my brother said, "would you rather suffer for just 5 more months or just slack off and continue suffering for the rest of your life? 5 months? OR 50 YEARS?! your choice ..." aint that sound so encouraging? dont you feel like fighting right now? haha, well i do.

i know you guys are really worried for me, i truelly appreciate that. i can see that you guys are really doing your very best to help me... providing me with tuitions, paying my tuition fees, updating me with the latest news happening around the globe and even asking friends to help me... i really, EXTREMELY love you guys. but i just somehow, aint showing any gratitude... i'll change, i promise! dont see me fooling around but, i seriously dont wanna let you guys down. i'll kill myself, cause what's the whole point when all your shame has been ripped off you? i'll seriously have no face to show... esp. to you guys... well, you'll see, i'll change... FYI, i know what you thinking---- "you've said that the last time. =.="

oh well, baby, i'll wait till the time comes... i'll use all my wits and strength to achieve your presence... GAMBATEH PEOPLE!

sayonara`
JoL!

sigh! you're at it again. when can we have a proper conversation, besides talking about studies and freaking O LEVELS?!?!

when? when? WHEN?! Grr...

And Jolene! ENOUGH with the water works!!!

i'm sorraye for ruining your day, truelly sorraye! D:

it is mother's day today and just because of some trival matters, everything became an outrage! is it so wrong to put myself in someone's shoes?
yes, i agree that responsibility is important, but then again, how would you know her real situation? call her irresponsible but, you may not know if she's really that sick to get up? you've been sick before, dont you feel so weak that it's like hell when you move? yea, sorethroat aint that serious but, still she's sick. in another point of view, maybe she's just giving excuses, you and i had thought of that too, but still, POSSIBILITIES! we cant jump into conculsion just like that! it may be true and that's where guilt comes in! FYI, everyone aint the same. some may just be weak but others strong. everyone is different...

another FYI, i went into my room was because you just dont seem to listen to me. it just seems that whatever i have to say will just be crap to you, as if it's just not worth listening to, you know how much pain i suffered?! it's so DAMN HURTING!!! esp. from YOU!

then again, i'm sorraye. i just cant control my anger.

i hate my damn attitude! hate it so SO MUCH! i dont understand, why in the world would a person cry when they are angry?! why?! i dont understand! would someone just explain to me! just take it that i'm dumb and stupid, just freaking explain to me, why! it's so damn embaressing if he/she is in a quarrel and then breaks into tears, wont he/she look like a weakling in other's eyes?! (okay, whatever i've said, just ignore)

anyway, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! i'm really sorraye for what happen today.

it was suppose to be a really great day for her, but i ruined it ...