Yesterday, Clare asked if I have checked my email, and guess what? There's another Acres briefing on 11th July. Man, was I happy. :D

Alright, I'm out. There's basically nothing else to write about.

Oh well. :D

Well, apparently, I'm quarantined till 3rd of July. Not that I've the virus, just that one of my classmate have been tested positive of the virus. I really hope she's doing fine and of cause, hope she's well.

A couple of my friends and I were suppose to attend this Acres briefing today, but because we're quarantined, we have to be socially responsible, told be Clare herself, didn't know she's that mature. Haha. Anyway, I was looking forward to the briefing and I bet all my friends were too. Oh well, mature Clare wrote an email on our behalf and I hope they'll make an exception.

Anyway, things between Jo and I are ay-okay. But of cause, I gotta give it to him, he was pretty mad that night but when he called me the next day, he was the first to break the ice. As for me, I was still pretty uptight about the fight. I'm not angry or anything like that, as mentioned in the previous entry, I had no clue on how to face him or even talk to him normally. But, yea, he broke the ice first and in no time, I was back to teasing him and my oh-so-childish ways. I don't think anyone will ever overtake him in the job he does, and that is, loving a girl like me.

Though I've only been living for 17 years, I don't think anyone can ever stand my personality, or perhaps they can, for awhile. :D And honestly, for now, Jo is doing a real good but I'm not sure about the future. Haha. *Yea laugh, Jolene. Laugh while you still can...

Relationship is a pretty f*cked up game to play. Please forgive me for my language, but I can't find any other word to describe how I feel right now.

I really hate having the feeling of being tied down, but of cause I'm aware that that's what you have to forgo for a relationship to continue writing on. But, honestly, sometimes, thoughts of giving-up entered my mind and I'm afraid that I'll be overwhelmed by it. I'm really afraid of making the wrong choice, afraid of regrets, afraid of losing you for the wrong reasons.....

I was told, for a girl, don't sink yourself too deep in a relationship, you'll hurt yourself. I've experienced that for myself and I would like to make it less painful in the next relationship. But, I end up hurting someone else! Now, I don't know what I should do.

Recently, I kept having dreams of us in scenarios I wish it will NEVER happen. I can feel the sadness flowing into me and it felt so real that I cried in my sleep. Tell me, what does it mean? Please, someone...

Last night, we had the biggest fight and I'm still not sure if it had resolved yet. I won't deny it was my fault. I was being childish and oblivious of your feelings, and I should have thought of you before taking action. But, would you reflect before sending me that message? I didn't flare until you turn everything against yourself, saying that it's your fault instead of mine. I hate that! Using reverse psychology ain't gonna work on me and that's cruel. I can find no words to describe how I felt at that moment, where to even begin describing? Why the hell would you say that?! When you already know that everything is MY FAULT! Okay, anyway, I've learnt my lesson and it'll never happen again.

I hate fights, I hate quarrels! Now, I don't know how to face you anymore. To get back to the fun and laughter we use to have. I don't know what I should be doing at this very moment either. Here I am, pouring out my feelings and when I'm done, what am I gonna do then? I don't know. Should I just watch my shows or should I call you? What should we talk about? I bet it's gonna be extremely awkward. I'm lost...

Last night, I literally stopped myself from shedding tears and went off to bed.... again. Am I avoiding?

Well, I have to say that Marley & Me is a bitter-sweet story. I loved the show at the start, but I started hate it at the end. Haha, Obviously, it's because Marley PASSED ON! Okay, I don't exactly hate the show, but it's at that scene, I cried infront of people. Well, honestly, I started to tear up when Marley had trouble walking with the steps. I wonder what it would be like if I ever had a Dog. Will I be devastated when it pass on? Hmm.

Anyway, I was overwhelmed by emotions today and I don't know why.
The journey when boyfriend walked me to the bus stop was extremely quiet. He was his usual irritating-self, but I wasn't. I was the cause for the quiet-ness. I'm sorraye.

On my birthday itself, I'd spent half with boyfriend and the other half with family.

First of all, boyfriend took me to Fish&Co (glass house) for lunch, which was fantastic, I must say. I had New york fish and chips which has cheese in it. *Yummm! After that, we headed down to the Cathay for our movie of the day, Blood: The Last Vampire. The movie wasn't up to my expectations and honestly, it was just crap. By the way, they don't call the blood suckers vampires, they call it demons. So when the demons showed their true forms, you can actually hear people laughing. Haha, guilty as charged, I laughed too. By the way, it was a M18 movie and I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW! Boyfriend had to point it out to me, if not, I don't think I'll realise it. The M18 sign was hung outside the theatre door and I didn't notice it. Haha. I was totally shocked! How blur can I be?

Anyway, for the other half, I had dinner with my family at Sushi Tae, the one we went exactly 1 year ago. Haha.

Thanks guys! :D

Yesterday, Yeesuan and Yeening came over for a movie marathon and we had a sleep over. During the December holiday, we totally should do this again. It's more relexing, agree? :D

Today was the 6sincere gathering, after so many trys to organise one, we finally had it today! Quite a number had changed alot, some stayed the same. Well, for Mr Alex Lee, he looked the same to me, although he claim that he had grown side ways, which I totally disagree. :D Everyone gathered outside J8's pasta mania and went in after awhile and it was on Mr lee, his treat, ain't that nice. But one thing I won't forget was what Cheryl did for me today. Arriving with a box of cake, she said it was for Mr alex lee. But after having all the delicious pizza, Manting asked me if I could accompany her to the restroom, everyone does that, so I suspected nothing. So yea, I accompanied her. But upon arriving back, everything became really suspicious, cheryl was outside when we walked back, manting told me to wait for awhile before entering, saying, "I don't know what's wrong with them, ai ya!"(Lols!) So thoughts ran through my mind and I begun to fear for what's to come. Entering with fear and curiousity, everyone were looking at me and a beautiful chocolate cake was on the table. Everyone started singing the traditional song so loud that I covered my face to hide the redness. I couldn't believe what's happening was actually happening and I didn't know what to do. While cutting the cake, I was still shocked and embaressed that my hands were shaking. THANKYOU CHERYL THAM! For everything and I Love you TONS LOADS! What would I do without you, bestie? Your Birthday, you watch out! Haha.

After that, Mr alex lee and a few girls left and the rest head down to orchard's starbucks to chill and have coffee together. I wonder what will happen to us in the future, some of us will be married( Hey! You guys gotta invite the entire 6 sincere to you wedding alright? :D), with different careers and such. I hope we'll still have such gatherings in the years to come. Anyway, we everyone talked about the past and were laughing about it. Walked around town and then it's time to head out of town. Everyone went home, except 6. Cheryl, Terrence, Matthias, Daniel, Zhizhen and me headed to Dan's new condo to do more chatting and chilling. The night was still young... :D

Haha, yea and then everyone headed home.

Have more gatherings yea? :D

Goodnight people!
Jol!

Hey people.

Well, it's the start of my holiday but sadly, it's only for 2 weeks. Haha, at least better than nothing, agree? :D

Anyway, I would like to thank my whole family, including Kayan and Boyfriend, for celebrating my birthday last weekend. Well, I suppose it's "weekends" because it was on 2 different days. I don't know why I still carry this little hope that everything will be back to normal, back to where we were still one. *Jolene! Stop being so naive, everything won't go with what you want. Sorraye, it's a moment of weakness.

Well, on saturday, my mum, bro, kayan, boyfriend and I went out for lunch at this classy restaurant called "7atenine". Though, we may not appreciate some, but it was really nice to actually eat such delicacies. If I'm not wrong, it's a Latin-chinese restaurant. But, I must say that their desserts were the best and I liked the cherry tomato with cheese, even though I don't eat tomato at all. I wish I've pictures to upload. Sorraye. After that, we all went out for a movie together and we watched Terminator salvation. It's nice but a little confusing for me. Haha. And, yea, that's about it. I really enjoyed myself, Thanks alot.

On Sunday, my bro and I went over to my grandma's for dinner and my dad bought a cake for me. Haha, it was hilarious, everyone took turns to sing a line of the Happy Birthday Song to me, including my grandma! But, my dad helped her. Not only that, my bro took part too. Damn hilarious. Though it was only 4 of us, I really enjoyed myself and the cake was lovely. :D Thankyou!

I really love you guys! Haha, and I realised that I've been saying thanks quite alot. Hahaha.

Oh well, on the actual day, I'm so gonna watch Blood: The Last Vampire. Haha, can't believe it's airing on my birthday. Well, the trailer seemed nice. :D What? It's a vamp show, I gotta catch it. :D

Anyway, I'll stop here. Gonna go for a swim now. :D

Jol!