heyy people! well, i woke up as usual today. i think it's much earlier than usual. ohh well, got ready and stuff, and left my house at around 6.40am. i bus-ed down to the train station and train-ed down to sembawang. today, i aint meeting anyone, so i walked to school alone. but, with my ipod with me, i dont feel lonely at all. Lols. music is my medicine! then reached school, sat down in the parade square and started to stare into space. then it's assembly. after assembly, we went back to class for OYL. we did reflections and stuff, and after that, it's slack-time! well, enough of slack-time, next was, geography! mostly, we did group work. then you know, blah blah blah, it's just lesson, lessons, LESSON! so let's talk about what happen after school. hmm, it's after school and the 3e2-ians cant head home yet, cause we all had a survey to do. well, it's the every year survey. at least, once a year, we had to do the same survey, and it's like 90 over questions i guess. ohh well, it's just a survey lah, no biggy right? Lols. so jennix and i went to the cosmix to put down our bags. then we headed to the toilet cause we are in need for one, badly! Lols. after that, we went down to the canteen, looking for the others. but, we didnt manage to find them. so we went staight to the com room 1, for the survey. we were the few first ones to arrive. so we were told to help turn on the com and log in. so we waited for everyone, and then, we started the survey. Lols. i took quite a long time to finish it. Lols. then after the survey, i accompanied jennix for awhile before going back home. i met france and laoniang at the bus-stop, so i took the 962 with them. we three chatted away and then i alighted at france's place, took a 965 back home. hmm, i admit that it's much faster and it's much nearer to my place. reached home and slacked awhile before my tutor came. well, as usual, we chatted before starting the class. "i've realised that i've really hurt you alot. i've hurt you pretty deep too, and i'm sorraye. i've also realised that i didnt get my facts right, i didnt put myself in your shoes. maybe, i also just dont know what guys are thinking these days. i totally forgot what kind of guy you really were. i kinda regretted not getting back with you. but, there's no point now, cause, i know, you're already hating me. i should have been more understanding and not flare up over trival matters. maybe that's my nature. maybe i'm not understanding at all, maybe, i'm those unreasonable, hot-tempered ones. i should have thought before doing anything, i know what i've done had made you feel that i aint the same as usual, and i know that what i've done was really wrong and hurtful. so, you can say, meeting me wasnt meant to be, meeting me is your bad luck. i'm the chaos in your life. i'm the one who recked our friendship. so, i'm sorraye for all the pain i've cause. i'm not your light, but the darkness. i can neither shine light nor can i help you find your way around. i hope you'll find yours one day, hope that because of her, your life would be brighter than usual and be filled with colours and happiness." well, that's what i need to get off my chest. well, loads of people made me realise that, and i'm really guilty conscious now. sigh! ohh i did loads of memorizing. she showed me this article on dog-napping, and i was totally shock as it's about a breed i liked. CHIHUAHUAs! they are just the cutest breed ever! so it states that, three 3 months old pups and four 6 weeks pups were stolen! i mean, how cruel is that? they still need intensive care! if not, they will die! i hope they are alright man! then after my tuition, i got pretty slacky again. so here i am, blogging away.

well, i think you're pretty lucky. there's not much memorise revolving around you. i mean, now, the places i'm in, it's filled with memorise. the only thing i can get rid of them is to sell out my belongings. but, i dont want to and what's more, i dont have the power to. what's worse is that i tried forcing myself but, i made no progress. sigh!

heyy peeps! well, yesterday was the last day the beijing students to be in our school. we all kinda had a farewell party. played loads of badminton yesterday which made my whole body ache today. so sadly, i cant go to the gym with suan today. REAL SORRAYE, woman!

<[27o7o7] friday.

woke up pretty late. so i got ready and i had no choice but to ask my mum to send me to school. really sorraye for bothering her. really! so i arrived in school pretty early. well, earlier then usual. hmm, went chatting with france before sitting down. well, sat down and just stared into blank space. then after assembly, we went up to class. had lesson with our buddies as usual. before school ended, our buddies had to go down to the chill room as we had to go for our pc lesson. we went to the AVA room for the charity programme. after ps lesson was over, i went to put my bag in the cosmix, then went to com room4 to wait for the rest. after all of them came out, the boys went for lunch, france went home to get her class T and as for laoniang and me, we went to sunplaza as i needa get a gift for my buddy. kinda borrowed money from laoniang. really sorraye! after buying the gift, we headed back to school. slacked in cosmix first, used the computers, then we went off to change into our class Ts. but i couldnt! my shirt was too transparent. so i asked france if she could lend me hers. so went down to the parade square while waiting for france. then seeing them play badminton, it's urging me to played too. then i just grab my racket and join in the fun! weeeee! i'm in love with badminton again! i wanna play more! we all really had fun! after badminton, it was like 6 plus already. then went off for dinner. we all had barbercue. it's awesome! loved the food. after awhile, at around 8 plus, our buddies had to leave, and i mean literally leave our school. we all felt pretty sad, after 2 weeks of interaction. well, we'll be seeing each other in november too. so, no worries. xDDDD took some pictures before leaving. we all said our farewells and thanked them. well, there's bound to be people crying though. but, people! we arent gonna be seperated for good. it's just temporary. we'll be back together in november, which is like in 3 month time. but, of cause, we canberrans will miss you! heeeee! so after that, they left and we just went back to our dinner. didnt really manage to finish it. then after awhile, france, laoniang, longge, bear and i went off to play badminton. ohh, feng went home pretty early today. so yea. but it was too dark to see the shuttle cord so, we girls went staring into the sky. it's pretty awesome though. after awhile, we decided to head home. reached home, ate something and kinda slacked awhile. then went off for a shower. man! after playing 2 hours of badminton, i didnt really sweat much lah. Lols. but, still i have to bath! then, by then i was extremely tired. so waited for awhile for my hair to dry but, i was like what the heck. i just went off to bed. Lols.

well, from what i saw, i'm just wondering, are we from two different worlds? ohhh! i think my mind is sort of in a chaos. my heart is regretting but, my mind is telling me that it's right. i'm totally stuck in the middle of right and wrong. sigh!

heyy peeps! remember i told you that i'm gonna blog the others later? well, i'm gonna do it now. heeee!

[20o7o7] friday

came back from the chalet and we were damn tired. france, laoniang, feng, long, bear and i went straight up to class when we arrived in school. after putting down our bags, we totally slacked on the staircase and i mean seriously slack. we were suppose to go down for the racial harmony exhibition but, we didnt. we skipped it as we know it's gonna be super boring, besides, we all were extremely tired and alittle bit cranky. so as i said, we slacked and for me, i kinda doze off while sitting on the steps. then the bell rang, but no one was up, so we slacked somemore. suddenly, we saw ms wong walking towards us, we rushed into the toliets asap. after awhile, we came out. then bell rang, we had to get back to class. then it was english lesson, i was kinda dozing off there, was alittle bit embarressing, cause, i've been writing while dozing off, so what i wrote was totally rubbish! then, it was recess, went down to get some food, and it's english again. you guys should know what happened right? Lols. after that, it was assembly. it's something to do with racial harmony. there's this play for us.

after school, it's party time! the gang and some other friends are coming over to my place for long's brithday party. well, i owe them one. but, some of them had to go back home to change, some had cca meetings. so many of them came at different timing. laoniang and i went there first. feng and long had to meet up with aaron first, so we were told to go there on our own. laoniang and i bought cup noodles back for lunch. reach my place and after awhile, feng, longge and aaron arrived. followed by bear, rich, ahh huu and then sadrina. francesca couldnt make it. so we all had a movie marathon. watched huanted school, davinci and then final destination 3. well, from what i observe, they liked the thrid movie better. Lols. bloody show! we had pizza and bear bought long's birthday cake. hmm, we all had fun, and it's seriously FUN!

i'll upload the pictures later, i guess. alright, i better get going.

sayonara`
Jol!

well, it's 23 once again. i'm really missing this date. memorises that were once reality are just flowing back again. erm, i know it's not surprising as it's not even a month. so yea, i know it's normal. but, thinking back, i know i've done loads of things to hurt him. if everything didnt start, maybe, by now, we would still be friends, not quarreling after every word was spokened. well, it's for sure that i wouldnt forget you. our reality will also become one of my memorises. but, the main point of this entry was to tell you, I'M SORRAYE! sorraye for giving you so much trouble. physically and emotionally.

well, i hope everything will turn out right for you and me. we'll still be friends right? i'm willing to just disappear from your pressence, cause, i hope all the bad memorises you have will just disappear, like me. but, how am i going to do that?

heyy peeps! sorraye! i didnt really felt like blogging these few days, cause i was damn tired! well, many things happened these few days. shall blog them now. xDDDD

[18o7o7] wednesday.

hmm, i cant really remember what happened but i'll blog the main event. today, it's the start of the twinning programme. the beijing students are coming to our school for the very first time. cool aye? well, we went down to cosmix at 8.40am. we joined the beijing students there. sat down and the teachers were introduced by our principal. hmm, after our principal had made his speech, we were introduced to our buddies. after that, we went around the school to introduce our school to them. first, we had a group picture. Lols. then we walked around the school. after that, we had a late recess. Lols. the people in the canteen were like looking at us, as if they had never seen people from overseas before. they had their refreshments and we went for our lunch. we brought them up to our class after eating. from there, we had class together for like a period? Lols. then they had to go for their lunch as they were leaving for the zoo. so we accompanied them down, introduced them the stalls and get them settled down with their food and drinks. after everything had settled, we said our byes to them and left for our classes. well, at first, i was extremely nervous! it's my first time hosting lah! damn nervous! but, i'm gald that my friends were in this together with me. well, it's totally the whole group. laoniang, france, feng, longge, bear and me. isnt that great? we're going over to beijing in november together. cool aye? i'm so looking forward to it!

[19o7o7] thursday

hmm, woke up later than usual. so i asked my mum if she could send me to school. well, my bag was kinda heavy too. cause my friends and i were going to down town east with our buddies. but of cause, there's other school-mates going. but first, we had lessons as usual. it's only until 13.10pm, we went down for lunch. at 2pm, it's when we left school. we then arrived there at 3plus. first, we went to check in, sort out who's rooming with who. so it's decided that we were rooming with our buddies. so we walked to our room, settled down and then, we decide where to go next. well, my buddy didnt want to go the wild wild wet. so she followed my other room-mate. well, they had other plans. so my friends and i went to wild wild wet with some of their buddies. we arrived and just went looking for a locker. settled down everything and then off to the waters! first, we went to the shiok river, then went for the family ride. well, we totally had fun there. i went up to the samsung quite a few times. i'm kinda likign that ride! first, feng went up with me and then he got kicked in the face by me. jol: FENG! sorraye about that! didnt mean to! well, mainly it's because, we sat down then the person pushed the float down when i wasnt ready. so i had no choice but to just quickly grab the flost and then no caring about my legs. so my legs started flying in the air due to dropping down from great height. then i just accidentally kicked his face. so the second attempt, i went up with laoniang, well that was awesome. we talked to the guy for awhile as he asked if laoniang was from hong kong, so we crapped alittle. then he started telling us that there was two kids who died from heart attack after going for this ride. then, laoniang and i started freaking out. so he apparently pushed the float to the edge SLOWLY, hanging us from there! and what's worse was laoniang had to look down and me, hanging from the edge. it really felt like i was about to fall. well, actually, we fell. the guy let go and then, weeeeee~ we were off! man! we totally screamed and it's awesome! okay. we went for the tsunami wave. Lols. that was extremely cool! we went near to the waves and we formed a circle. well, we eventually broke the circle for quite afew times. but formed again after using so much muscle power. well, it's really a great teamwork practise. heeeee! it's like even though there's trouble, friends would be there to help and pull you back to safety. after awhile, our buddies wanted to get going. so we opened the locker for them and they took their stuff back. but, we couldnt lock the locker back up. we decided to just top playing and look after our stuff. well, laoniang, france and i felt hungry. we bought cheesefries, while waiting for the guys. after the guys came back, we rested for awhile and then head back. took a quick shower and went out for dinner. great accomplishment was that, i showered when the room was empty. but, i got kinda afraid at first, but i did it! with the help of my cell phone. music became my other medicine. well, joined them after that. ate and we kinda fed the cats some of our food. though we felt great but, i was wondering, feeding them our food, wouldnt it make them sick? well, it's over. so went back to the room, after awhile, i went over to laoniang and france's room. watched shows and waited for the guys to call us over. i went back to my room for quite afew times, really felt guilty for troubling my room-mates for running to the door and opening it. real sorraye! so took my stuff and went over to the guys room. well, of cause it's me, laoniang and france. played cards there. after that, we got kinda bored and went out. for the whole night, laoniang, france, feng and i didnt get any shut eye. they didnt want to sleep and i didnt want to but there's another reason. i couldnt get my contacts out cause, i was kinda locked out of my room. my room-mates had to sleep and they were afraid that someone might enter if they didnt close the door. so my other room-mate tried banging the door but noone came to answer, so yea, that's why we didnt sleep. but, we apparently chatted for the whole night. what bothers me was I'M FEEDING THE MOSQUITO! it's like i'm the only one who's scratching away. well, everyone got kinda crazaye that night. LACK OF SLEEP! until, 4am, we went to mac for an early breakfast. ate and chat. then we went back to wake the others up, cause it's 5.30am. Lols. waking them up was pretty fun. ohhh! france, laoniang, feng and i broke our record! NOT SLEEPING FOR 24 HOURS! first attempt! well, in the morning, we all were very tired! went back to school, we slacked at the staircase. i mean seriously slack, we didnt go down for the racial harmony thingy. then we had lessons, and i was totally dozing off. couldnt help it. i tried opening my eyes but it just close back. then we went for the racial harmony concert. well the others are after school.

i shall blog the others later. i'm sleepy! i needa sleep! byee guys!

sayonara `
Jol!

yes! i'm the cause of everything! i'm a bad-person!

heyy guys! what's up? heeeee! you know what? i've been thinking, wont falling off a cliff be nice? ohh ohh! maybe, just sleep for your whole life, never waking up and face the light? hahaha! wont that be great? total peace! but, it's kinda stupid though.

well, anyone wanna go out? to east coast or something? i needa go out, free my thoughts and let them go! i'm craving for extreme sports! i wanna go rock climbing, kayaking, cycling and many many more! i just wanna go out! watching a movie would also be prefect! anything, just need something to keep me busy! i seriously need some!

AMNESIA! wont that just be awesome? we'll be total strangers from now on.

heyy people! what's up? Lols. he came back! he came back!! aint that great? we all were gald that he came back! really hope he's happy. xDDDDD

hmm, today, i woke up pretty late, cause i kinda slept late again last night. then, my mum woke me up by banging the door man! Lols. that's new huh? Lols. then went out for breakfast. man! my tutor is so punctual! she came when i'm eating. so i had to eat after class. i requested an early let go. cause i had to rush out. i'm meeting ngoh, drey and jerel at woodlands train station. hmm, i got out of the house at 2.15pm. but i didnt really make it, was suppose to reach there at 2.30pm but i reached there around 2.50pm. Lols. sorraye guys! met up with them, and i was told that we had to take the train thats going down to marina bay. then i was like, " what?! i just came down from yishun and now you're telling me to go back?" Lols. i was totally freaking out man! ohh well. i'm not angry, just shocked to hear that. xDDDDD then we just train-ed down to Dhoby Ghaut and then switched to punggol. we were heading to punggol beach. after boarding the 82 bus. we reached punggol beach. we thought that it's gonna be deserted, but, there's like so many people. luckily, we werent alone. Lols. then walked around, taking photos. it's like the first time that we organised our own field trip. usually, it's the teachers who would bring us to such occasion. Lols. that's what ngoh told me. xDDDDD so we took pictures and THANKS ngoh for modelling! then walked around, did what we had to do.

then i spotted a huge lizard in the waters. it looked like a smaller version of a komodo dragon. but, i dont know what it actually is, i only know it's a lizard, a huge lizard. it's getting late, so we decided to head back. bought drinks on the way. ngoh, drey and jerel train-ed back down to Dhoby Ghaut while i train-ed down to outram park, switched train-ed and train-ed down to common-wealth. met my dad outside. so we walked back to my grandma's house. after awhile, we went to the back for dinner. it's been so long since we ever had dinner together at the back. it really brought back memorises. i really like the feeling! well, we all had a great dinner together. chatted for awhile and then we all head back home.

it's almost 9, so all of us had to get back home. so i said my byes to my grandma and my dad. well, i took a taxi with my couz and her parents. reached home, called my dad, showered and here i am blogging.

well, it's getting pretty late. i better go get my homework done. later guys!

sayonara`
Jol!

yea, it's great being with you. it's like we've known each other since pre-school, there's no tensions between us. but, now, i'm not sure if i can say that.

heyy people! it's gonna be boring. nothing much happened today. hmm, woke up alot later than usual. i slept quite late last night. so my mum came in to wake me up. Lols. while having my breakfast, my tutor came. so i had no choice but to go for tuition first. well, i did some memorising and we talked about newpapers articles. hmm, read about this guy who lived with three wolf-cubs for 18months. man! doesnt that sound cool! being the three little cubs' mummy. seeing them grow up and stuff. best part was, he taught the three cubs like what normal she-wolf would do. that's such an opportunity! you dont get close to wolfs everyday you know. it's like super cool! but, it'll be pretty hard for a human to be a she-wolf. jol arh jol, you're insane!

after tuition, i went for lunch. after awhile, my auntie and i went down to the gym. Lols. i made an improvement! i was running for like 25mins non-stop! isnt that great? Lols. last time, i could only run for 15mins and in the middle, i walked quite afew times before continuing. but this time, woah! 25mins of non-stop running! well, maybe, to you, it's a piece of cake but to me, it's a great improvement! xDDDDD after spending 40mins in the gym, we decided to go home. rested and then went for my shower. man! i stink badly! it's really unbearable! trust me! went for dinner after that.

so here i am, typing away. boring huh? hah! i told you! xD

sayonara`
Jol!

we really are strangers now. but, i cant expect anything. i know you too wanna move on. but, stopping the urge to talk to you was really tearing my heart apart. if i ever let the urge take over me, i dont know how am i gonna forget you. i'm really trying. i too needa move on!

heyy peeps! well, now, i have a mixture of feelings in me. well, there's quite afew things that had happened.

hmm, woke up slightly later than usual. so i kinda missed my bus. so i had to wait for the next one, which will probably make me late. but, i rushed. so i managed to reach school in time. but! i'm all sweaty again! argh! man! we're suppose to look fresh and clean early in the morning, but, i'm all sweaty early in the morning. it's just not right! after the national anthem, we all went off for lessons. hmm, as you know, it's friday. there are lesser lessons! yeah-friday! after school was over, i met up with laoniang and gang. laoniang and i went off to the cosmix to put our bags down first. then we went to the canteen, looking for france. Lols. france told us all about the camp she just had. listening to what she said, really make me wanna go there. i wanna do some rafting. you know, those going down rocky rivers, strong currents. Lols. suddenly, i got the craving for such ... extreme sports? anyway, accompanied france for lunch. then we all went up to the cosmix. laoniang and i used the computer while, france chatted with the boys. a while later, the cosmix was closing as there will be guest arriving soon(read previous post). so france went home and the boys stayed back to do their work.

after ushering, the course started. then dinesh assigned laoniang and i to do something for him. then after we're done, we all slacked. it's pretty noisy in the room. so after awhile, dinesh came in and scolded us. so we all went out to listen.

after the course had ended, we got another scolding from dinesh. yea! laoniang and i really agreed that we all werent getting our heads into photography. we aint serious about it. but! both of us, had realised that we've wasted alot of time and we shall not waste anymore. recalling what's the price for first place, we're determined once more. wakakaka~ yea, i admit, it's the price that encourages us. but still, we have passion for photography. like what dinesh said, we always felt that we came for cca was just a waste of time, but the actual reason was, we didnt do much on photography, but just coming for cca to chat and slack. but, i think that it's gonna change. so now, i'm worried about the competition. i'm afraid that we wont get what we expected. but, we'll try our very best!

man! homework, homework, HOMEWORK!! it's all about homework for this week. due to MC for two days, i have alot to catch up! i'm totally behind time. everyone are ahead of me, leaving me behind to suffer. cause, i missed afew lessons and so, i dont know what's going on when i'm doing my homework. damn it! tons of work to do. well, wish me all the best then. xDDDD

alright, it's getting pretty late. i needa get some rest too.

sayonara`
Jol.

i dont know why my heart ached when i saw the change in you. it just tells me that you'll be moving on with a new beginning. it's like you've changed into another person who i dont know at all. it really hurts me, being strangers with you. i really miss your oldself. hmm, maybe it's better to have a change. maybe, that's the way to forget the past faster. well, who knows. :)

heyy people! i'm still in school, waiting for my course to start. damn, i was thinking of going down to my grandma's place today, but dont think i can. so maybe some other day then. have you realise anything? today is friday the thirteen! Lols. i'm not trying to be superstitious or anything, but i'm just stating the fact. xDDDDD

hmm, everything just felt like it's a new beginning. well, i'll be able to cope with it, we all will! my family is STRONG! xDDDDD but, actually nothing much have changed, because, he'll always be with us, always in our hearts. :)

well, next week, there will be students from beijing coming over to our school and my friends and i were selected to be their host. well, actually, it's for 2 weeks. we each will be paired up with one student. i'm seriously nervous. i'm afraid i have nothing to say. well, i'll try to bring up more topics. besides, my friends will be there with me, but except during lessons. the good part is that, it's fun, fun,FUN! we'll be going to down town east, maybe have a chalet there, and maybe, we'll have loads of activities there. man! i'm really getting excited. i hope i wont dissappoint them. like what mr ng said, we're representing our school and our country. LOLS! alright, wish me all the best. haha! i'm thinking, what if, at the very last minute, i'm being replaced by someone who can talk and host better then me. awww, that's would be a drag man!

Lols, the course is starting real soon. people are arriving. the photographer is already here! by the way, his shots are really very nice. Lols, but today, it's students from primary schools. i guess we'll be the oldest. Lols. alright then. i think i'll stop here.

sayonara`
Jol's out

it's just a status. it's either you're in or you're out! even though we both know the answer, it does hurt me as much as it hurts you.

i'm not sure! is it my stomach that's making me feel this way, or is it my heart, aching away? honestly, i cant tell the difference now. both parts are aching. i think i ate the wrong stuff today. but, what's with my heart? it's aching. maybe cause i'm still thinking of the past. do i deserve such pain? YES. is it because i took everything for granted? maybe. what do i have to do to forget the past? thinking of it, is really killing me. i really felt like going back and change everything back to normal. it's like something is missing in my life. no! it's our life. if only i could do better in the past, then, i will not feel that guilty now.

it seems like we're never going back huh? well, it's official. we're going our seperate ways now. maybe it's for the better? well, it's every person for himself now. from now on, i really dont wanna be too dependant on others. i wanna be independant, i wanna be strong, but! can i do it?

anyway, enough of that. today, i had lessons as per normal. ohh! really wanna THANK laoniang for the present. hmm, nothing interesting happened today. it's boring old lessons. but, laoniang and i stayed back to finish up our homework. Lols. something happened that made laoniang abit frustrated. Lols. so, after that, we went home as there aint any CCA today. reached home at around 5.30pm, and it's exactly the time for me to watch my show. watched and slacked for awhile. went for a shower and ate after that.

so here i am, blogging away. well, it's getting pretty late. no! it's SUPER late! it's almost 2am! alright! i better get into bed. byeeeee!

heyy people! well, i didnt attend school today. was pretty tired and didnt really feel too well. anyway, i think i'll post some of photos i took during my trip to the states. i know it's pretty late posting that but what the heck.

aww! that's my tour group. it does bring back good memorise.

The Little Trios. we're rockin`!

that's me and my dearest mummy at the falls.

no! we'll never let go of the bloody tooth!

aww! they got the bloody tooth!

hmm, i know there's a reason why i did that. but i just cant remember. xD

erm, do you happen to have any food on ya?

dont see me tiny, i bite!

my pals, my angels, MY FAMILY!

dont care about us. let we three be.

The Little Trios are on holiday!

heyy people! it's been a rough day for me and my family. well, today i aint staying with them. i hope they would take a good rest after four tough days. espeacially my grandma and daddy. well, i'm gonna study hard now. i'm trying to get my head into studying. after having a talk with my brother, he had really convinced me. but can the words in my head be there forever? or will it disappear and disappoint everyone again? i've no idea. let time tell us but, it all also depends on me. alright, enough with that! hmm, came back, rest awhile then went to take a shower. ate then kinda doze off alittle. after that, i was in heaven. DURIAN!! it's been such a long time since i last ate durian, which reminded me of something. by the way, what's the salt water for? after so many years, i still dont really know what's it for.

what's the whole point of regretting now? it'll never bring back what i've lost. but, can i control what's taking over me right now? it's just coming to me even when i dont want it to. people! i think you guys should know. please treasure what you have right now. dont regret after you've lost it. even after my dad told me thousand of times. nothing went into my head, until now. i've seriously regretted. why didnt i just listen and do what i was told?! i'm seriously sorraye! yes, i admit that i was just thinking of myself and not others. people was right! so, now, i can only rely on memorise to remember those beautiful people who used to care and bring colors to my life.

replaying the songs we used to listen together, made me remind how happy we were back then. is it better to have amnesia now?

heyy people! well, i'm still in school. i'm going for course later. man! it's gonna end pretty late, but decided to go off in the middle of the course. but i'm seriously moodless. i just dont feel like staying here too long. i'm missing my home! anyway, my internet is still down. you see, even the my computer is creating trouble for me. as i've said, everything aint going right for me! so only way to blog is to use the school's computer. problems starts coming up between me and baby. it's pretty sad though. alright. i think i'll stop here for now. byeee!

even if everything ends here, you'll always be special to me.

everything is in a mess right now. i cant even tell what i'm really feeling. is it sad, angry or confused? i cant tell anymore. things aint going too well for me. i had two bad news in one day, really bad ones. i'm trying to keep everything smooth for myself. yea, i know i've not done enough before. i've realised my mistakes. as what xn said " time waits for no one. " looking at that sentence really make me feel extremely guilty for not treasuring my loved ones when they're with me. well, what's happened, it cant be undone right? how i wish there's a time machine. well, everyone says that when they're in my situation. but i seriously need one! i'm desperate to get everything back to normal! well, i'm just gonna try being strong. hope everything will turn out alright!

what do i have to do to make all my sorrows go away?! i've seriously regretted! i'm sorraye for everything!

heyy guys ... it's been pretty long since i last post. my internet is down and i think it's down with virus. sad huh? well, lately, loads of bad things are happening to me. nothing was going right. but i dont wish to say. it just aint good for me and the people around me.

anyway, i'm in school right now, waiting for the teacher to arrive. by the way, i wanna THANK my friends who made me feel pretty happy today. they kinda made me forget all about what's happening lately. anyway, didnt really felt like going to cca today but, i had to go! hmm, but i'm starting to love my cca group. there's loads of cuteeee people inside. really cute ones! they made the whole cca lively. yeah-them! xD tomorrow i'm having a gathering at my house with a few friends over. it's to celebrate longge's birthday. hmm, i hope everything will turn out alright. i seriously hope so.

hmm, we're are still waiting for the teachers! they're taking such a long time man! anyway, i guess i should stop here then. nothing much to write anyway.

you guys made me look strong, and i'm really greatful for having such nice friends!